Vague.

Thank you. :)

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 08:43:57 -0500

Teary-eyed, nostalgic, please bring back those memories.

No greetings coming from you. No hi nor hello. It sucks because I am expecting something even though I do not have the right to. I want to approach you, say everything that I have been keeping for a long long time now but I do not even have the courage of thinking about the consequences of doing it. It really really sucks.

Someone confessed to me. Someone said he likes me. But instead of thinking about him, your face is the one I remembered. I do not know why. I do not even want to know. Please leave me now. Leave me. :(

Self-Appreciation Dayy

Sun, 16 Dec 2012 08:48:37 -0500

I am just in the mood to tell some stories that will uplift my morale. Hahaha. I want to overwhelmed myself. I just want to appreciate the person writing this. I do not even remember the last time I told myself that I am worth it. That is why right now, I am going to appreciate myself, I am going to boost my confidence. :) HHAHAHA

I am almost done with my 1st year as a college student. My 16th year as a human being is almost at its downhill. 13 days from now I am going to turn 17 and I am going to start a new life, a new chapter :)

But first, are there things that I have accomplished? Are there things that I should be proud of? :) I think I deserved a YES.

I know that I have been working so hard just to be recognized as someone not like anyone else. Being an “ordinary” person/student/16th year old girl is not something I have dreamed of. I want to be extraordinary in my own little ways.

Maybe that is because being part of a group is something that really makes me happy. Working for the welfare of the community is something that really makes sense to me. It is something that I have been doing since I was in grade school. And without it, I just feel so useless. :))

Owell. let’s continue this next time hahaha baaaabush

It will come back. It will always come back.

Sat, 03 Nov 2012 10:08:00 -0400

There are times that I still remember the way we used to be. Yes, flashbacks, they still visit me most of the time. It usually reminds me of what I wanted it to be, what it is supposed to be, what it should have been. But everything will remain there. Everything will remain impossible now. Everything is just a flashback of the past.

I still miss you. Funny isn’t it. I am the first one who said that we had enough, and yet, I think I am the person missing those times we had back then. Maybe because I have not found the answers I have been searching for a long long time now. Hahaha. I just do not like asking someone if they really love me. It feels like I am begging for something I should not beg for. No one deserves to beg just to experience that he/she is being loved. But I think it is also my fault because I am so scared to face the answer you might give me. I am so afraid that you might say no. Haha. I am afraid of not being loved back. So childish, yes? yes.

I am still wearing the ring. I said that in case fate will allow us to see each other again, I guess by that time I will be strong enough to face you and start a civil conversation with you. Then after that conversation, I am planning to return the ring. Return it, then that is the time that I should stop asking questions. That is the time that I should forget, and be genuinely happy.

I know that you do not want to talk to me nor to see me. But please, if ever I will see you again, I just want to hug you. That’s it.

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Mix it all up.

Wed, 24 Oct 2012 09:26:07 -0400

Sembreak! Yes.

The agony of waiting is finally over. We are now given 3 weeks to have some rest, to take some vacation, and most especially to prepare for the upcoming semester.

These 3 weeks will be a different one for me. After 12 long years, someone very dear to me finally went back here in country with her child. It’s been a tough day for us. We waited for about 2 hours in the airport. I was not able to eat something that will keep my energy boosted that is why I felt that I was not physically stable that day. But in spite of these problems I have encountered, I was very happy when I saw them at the waiting area. Thomas was crying at the time. He told me that he miss his dad. But after few tries, I was able to talk to him, carry him, and hug him.

But then, here I am, feeling sick. I really think that this is because these past few days, I do not have the appetite for food. Plus, I really do not like our class schedule for this semester. Anyway, I am just hoping that I will be able to surpass everything. I need to keep going.

And finally, I cried a while ago. It is just because I am missing a lot of things. My high school friends, my old life. Those hugs.

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Kill it.

Grasping it.

Tue, 09 Oct 2012 03:51:48 -0400

Finals, this week.

It has been a tough semester for me. First time in college, first time in AB. I really think that staying in UST won’t be an easy job for anyone. Even staying in AB. I just have to admit that it is a new world after all.

Upon entering the university, time management has always been the problem. I just don’t know how to handle things properly. The aspect of cramming is always there. Procrastination is my thing, but if I will let this happen all over again, uh-oh. Then there’s a problem.

I’m hoping that cosmic forces will shower their blessings upon me.

Blaaah.

Fri, 05 Oct 2012 10:15:23 -0400

Sembreak, pleaaaaaaase.

First year, first sem. Next week, hell week.

You know what I mean.