There are times that I still remember the way we used to be. Yes, flashbacks, they still visit me most of the time. It usually reminds me of what I wanted it to be, what it is supposed to be, what it should have been. But everything will remain there. Everything will remain impossible now. Everything is just a flashback of the past.
I still miss you. Funny isn’t it. I am the first one who said that we had enough, and yet, I think I am the person missing those times we had back then. Maybe because I have not found the answers I have been searching for a long long time now. Hahaha. I just do not like asking someone if they really love me. It feels like I am begging for something I should not beg for. No one deserves to beg just to experience that he/she is being loved. But I think it is also my fault because I am so scared to face the answer you might give me. I am so afraid that you might say no. Haha. I am afraid of not being loved back. So childish, yes? yes.
I am still wearing the ring. I said that in case fate will allow us to see each other again, I guess by that time I will be strong enough to face you and start a civil conversation with you. Then after that conversation, I am planning to return the ring. Return it, then that is the time that I should stop asking questions. That is the time that I should forget, and be genuinely happy.
I know that you do not want to talk to me nor to see me. But please, if ever I will see you again, I just want to hug you. That’s it.