I just can’t help myself from reading that post again and again. I just realized how careless I am. I’ve been acting like I’ve never done something wrong, and that’s so stupid. I just have to admit that, I am not that strong to handle this situation properly. I should have kept everything to myself. Dapat kasi kumalma lang ako. Hahaha.
What’s done is done. I’m just too tired to think about it all over again. I prayed yesterday and I told myself that I will just let the feelings go. Right after I click that “Create post” button, I must convince myself that I should stop right now.
I would just like to say sorry if I’ve said some inappropriate words. Lack of control, I guess. I won’t delete that post because that will always remind me that I should stay calm every time, so that I won’t get hurt and I won’t be able to hurt someone. And lastly, I would like to say sorry for breaking my promise. I don’t have enough words to explain it anymore. It’s my fault, sorry.
It is not going to be easy for me. It’s hard to let go of someone you loved the most. Yung pagtanggap pa nga lang na galit na galit siya sayo, di ko na kinakaya, eto pa kaya. It’s my first time to love someone this much, yung akala mo eto na yung hinahanap mo. But enough of those regrets, I can’t rewind what just happened and go back.
Let him find his own happiness because I know and I believe that he can do that. Hope for his happiness because that’s the only thing that I can do. And lastly, pray that he will soon forgive/forget me. :)
What’s done is done.
Tatawanan ko na naman sarili ko, kasi alam ko namang hindi ko kaya gawin yun. Hayy Kiang. Why.